The woman in my life

Today a trip to my mom is on the agenda. She is 88 years old and this last year her candle is dimming.

All was well until four years ago when she broke her arm, she went from independent to dependent. Nowadays things are getting worse and worse, I fear these are her last months and I want to spend as much time as possible with her.

I even postpone my holiday plans because of it. She was very angry when she heard it "Should i die now?!", she asked me. OK, ok I will book my holiday, I promised her. This last week she stayed in bed, to weak to walk and a permanent pain her belly. I have a very strong connection with her, call her 2 sometimes 3 times a day and share my whole life with her. She is so very wise about anything! I will cry my eyes out of she is gone.

Anyway, sitting in the train, three hours later I will she her again. I will stay there a week orso, I will see.

I just realized I even call daily when I am abroad always making sure she can connect with me, day and night. I should make a plan for my Asia trip as well, not only that she can call me but that thing will be taken care off if she passes on (terrible though, I will stop writing about it it just makes me upset).